Illogical rationalization builds a prison for me. Black and white thinking keep me here.
How can I leave myself? I will not make those who I love suffer.
After multiple suicide attempts, inpatient and intensive outpatient, group therapy and one on one daily exposure therapy, after ten years of fighting, leaving nine jobs due to my disability, feeling the weight of my world defeat me over and over, I denounce my Existance, and recognize that I exist solely so those who I love will not have to suffer through my suicide.